I may seem a little late in writing this, but it taken me this long to try and get my thoughts together on the subject. For those who don't know, Monty Oum was a 3d animator. He animated a Metroid/Halo fight named Haloid, a mash up of Dead or Alive and Final Fantasy called Dead Fantasy, and some of the later seasons of Red vs Blue. In 2013, he created his own original series, RWBY. And on February 1st 2015, he passed away.
Now, I'm going to sit here and talk about him like I knew him, I never met him. I'm an avid listener of the Rooster Teeth Podcast, and a big fan of RWBY, and I felt like I learned a lot about him through those mediums. I wanted to meet him. Every year I wanted to go to RTX, not searching for an autograph or a picture, but just to say that I enjoyed his work. More than that, I dreamed of working at Rooster Teeth. To me, that's not even a wild dream. The wild dream was actually having the balls to pitch him an idea. But each year, I just didn't have the money to make it to RTX. Until this year.
I was lucky in that I was off from work when I heard the news. If not, I would have just lost my shit in the middle of a job. I went to my room and laid down for a while. For the first time in a long time I cried. And I was crying for a man I didn't know and never met. I just lay there thinking. As I thought about it, I realized that this is not what Monty would want nor what he would do. So I set my emotions aside, hauled my ass out of bed, and ran my errands for the day.
Now working for Rooster Teeth, I knew I couldn't be a modeler or an animator. I couldn't hold a candle to Monty, but I could be a video editor for Achievement Hunter. I still think I'm one of a handful of people who could work there. The problem was I talked alot about it, but never really did anything. I actually edited my first achievement guide in 2012, but never added a commentary. I had shot some footage for other guides in late 2013, and never did anything. I shot and edited what was going to be my first guide on January 22nd, and was going to upload it on the 23rd, but delayed again in searching for a co-commentator.
I have a long history of saying I'm going to do something, but never doing it. I always said that the surest way for me to not do something is to say I'm going to do it. I read somewhere that talking about doing something gives the same chemical reaction in your brain as doing it. So as I was laying in bed, I decided that every time I talk about something and don't do it, it would be an insult to Monty. I can't work as hard as he could, but I could work as hard as i could to make things happen.
I know this has kinda turned more into something about me and not about Monty and I'm sorry for that. But I felt I needed to share how Monty changed my life. I'm still not entirely sure if my writings are a tribute or an insult to him, but I know my path forward in life. And I'm going to keep moving forward.