Wh33lman

I may seem a little late in writing this, but it taken me this long to try and get my thoughts together on the subject. For those who don't know, Monty Oum was a 3d animator. He animated a Metroid/Halo fight named Haloid, a mash up of Dead or Alive and Final Fantasy called Dead Fantasy, and some of the later seasons of Red vs Blue. In 2013, he created his own original series, RWBY. And on February 1st 2015, he passed away.

Now, I'm going to sit here and talk about him like I knew him, I never met him. I'm an avid listener of the Rooster Teeth Podcast, and a big fan of RWBY, and I felt like I learned a lot about him through those mediums. I wanted to meet him. Every year I wanted to go to RTX, not searching for an autograph or a picture, but just to say that I enjoyed his work. More than that, I dreamed of working at Rooster Teeth. To me, that's not even a wild dream. The wild dream was actually having the balls to pitch him an idea. But each year, I just didn't have the money to make it to RTX. Until this year.

I was lucky in that I was off from work when I heard the news. If not, I would have just lost my shit in the middle of a job. I went to my room and laid down for a while. For the first time in a long time I cried. And I was crying for a man I didn't know and never met. I just lay there thinking. As I thought about it, I realized that this is not what Monty would want nor what he would do. So I set my emotions aside, hauled my ass out of bed, and ran my errands for the day.

Now working for Rooster Teeth, I knew I couldn't be a modeler or an animator. I couldn't hold a candle to Monty, but I could be a video editor for Achievement Hunter. I still think I'm one of a handful of people who could work there. The problem was I talked alot about it, but never really did anything. I actually edited my first achievement guide in 2012, but never added a commentary. I had shot some footage for other guides in late 2013, and never did anything. I shot and edited what was going to be my first guide on January 22nd, and was going to upload it on the 23rd, but delayed again in searching for a co-commentator.

I have a long history of saying I'm going to do something, but never doing it. I always said that the surest way for me to not do something is to say I'm going to do it. I read somewhere that talking about doing something gives the same chemical reaction in your brain as doing it. So as I was laying in bed, I decided that every time I talk about something and don't do it, it would be an insult to Monty. I can't work as hard as he could, but I could work as hard as i could to make things happen.

I know this has kinda turned more into something about me and not about Monty and I'm sorry for that. But I felt I needed to share how Monty changed my life. I'm still not entirely sure if my writings are a tribute or an insult to him, but I know my path forward in life. And I'm going to keep moving forward.

2 updates in 6 months? what? i bet all 4 of you forgot you watched me didnt you.
"hey who the fu.... oh. its this asshole."

in the past 6 months, life has improved. i have a job, i have an apartment, but most importantly, i have a dedicated time to write and/or draw. you see, im a bit paranoid that people will steal my laundry if i leave it unattended(why someone would want my nasty underwear i dont know), so i slap the battery back in my laptop and sit with it for about an hour a week. i spend that time writing down all the crazy ideas that float through my head. its mostly been about an original RWBY team, but im hoping to get to canon RWBY characters and maybe even bring back some Naruto.

i generally dont post things before theyre done because i hate when other people do that. alot of things are just sitting on my hard drive right now, waiting to be finished. might post all of them, might not post any, we'll just have to wait and see.

anyway, thanks for watching, im out!

So, to put it bluntly, I'm basically homeless. And I guess I don't really mind telling a bunch of random strangers that I'm scared out of my mind right now. It's not as bad as it could be, as I'm staying with a friend, so I at least have a roof over my head an a cot to sleep on.

I'm back to writing because it's keeping my mind occupied, and it keeps the fear from getting to me. There's also not many other thing this computer can do. Right now, I'm immersed in RWBY, so I'm writing that. That may go back to Naruto depending on how the next few weeks play out.

So there you have it. A yearly update on a profile I almost never use.

Or, whoever happens to stumble across my page. I feel as though I should update my journal at least once every 2 years or so, despite the fact that people are probably not watching.

Anyway, I haven't uploaded anything in a really, really long time. It's mostly because for alot of that time, I've been very depressed.
My drawing desk has become cluttered with random crap that I throw on there when I first enter my room. My old, hand-me-down laptop finally died, trapping a fair amount of writing on the hard drive. Overall, I haven't really been in much of a mood to do anything.

But as of late, I've started started to feel a little bit better about myself. For Christmas, I received a new laptop and sketchpad, as well as a set of nice drawing pencils. And recent trip through my gallery to tidy things up has reminded me that maybe I wasn't so bad at this whole "art" thing after all.

I won't make promises. I won't even say "I'm going to do this". But I'm hoping. I'm hoping that I'll find something I enjoy doing, and that someone will enjoy watching.

so Reality Contact, the e-mag that publishes my comic every month, finally made it big. the developers of Project Reality, on which the magazine is based, took note of it. they added all the editions to a sticky thread, and you can also download all of the issues straight from their website. so what are you waiting for, go and check them all out!

www.realitymod.com/forum/f10-.…